Raven Skye Harrison's Journal

Slightly Happy, slightly broken
*Written in Italian*

Come sarei potuto essere così stupido? Perché ho creduto che potrebbe cambiare? Mi era non solo il gulible, mi ha preso solo anche più rotto di ero prima. Proprio come prendevo la mia vita di nuovo sulla pista. Il suo rompere ero il punto di nessuno ritorno. Come mai sopravviverò il dolore da questo, questo tempo intorno? Il dolore è più intenso, e temo che qualcosa succederà..

*Written in English, with a slightly shaky hand*

For those of you who still remember my existance, I am back. And this time, I am hoping that I will be here longer than the last time I graced your pressence with my existance, but I am back to say the least. I am not sure what is going to happen while I am here, but I think the teaching job here at Ravenhurst will give me a sense of purpose. Those of you taking piano, Choir and vocal lessons, please be aware that classes will be Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays. And it will be a mix of morning and afternoon classes. If you want private lessons feel free to contact me at my office, which the hours are posted in the door. And my door is always open. But while I am here, I'm hoping to find something to make my life worth living.

[Private to self and close friends]
I'm hurt.. more hurt than I have ever been in my entire life. If you know my mother, then you can guess very well who hurt me again. This time was almost as bad as living those years when I could not fight, and now whille I did fight, I ended up being more broken than ever before. I want to ask for help, but I am afraid of asking for it and actually admitting that I am broken.

I.. need you guys. You know who you are so I do not need to name names, but I need your help before I end up doing something completely drastic. I'm scared that she will find me, hurt that she even did this to me, which signifies that she is off her rocker, and broken because I was stupid enough to believe her lies yet again. Please... I need someone and since you all are my best friends, you are the ones I can really put my full trust in..
[End Private]

At any rate, I am glad to be back and hope to see some of you in class.

~Raven~

(ooc: for those of you who don't know Italian, here is the translation of the first part of her entry:"How could I have been so stupid? Why did I believe she could change? Not only was I gulible, it only got me even more broken than I was before. Just as I was getting my life back on track. Her breaking me was the point of no return. How am I ever going to survive the pain from this, this time around? The pain is more intense, and I fear something will happen..")

Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: "Wings of Steel" Collide